As Salaamu Aalaykum,
I think maybe I should get checked by a doctor or get out more. One or the other. I think I've been depressed most of my life but didn't notice it because the abuse was far more painful. For the last 6 years that I've been abuse free and there is no physical pain to muffle my feelings I've been noticing it more and more.
I mentioned it to my husband and he was concerned with the possible side effects of anti-depression medication since one of them is thoughts of suicide and a few people (actually more than a few) have committed suicide while on those medications. He's afraid. Technically my depression is manageable and its not severe for the benefits of the medication to outweigh the nasty side effects. A part of me wants to beat depression because I feel that the abusers are still 'winning' because I'm still dealing with their aftermath
On a similar note, I get these genius ideas followed by a serious dip in depression. Its like the price for these ideas IS a dip in depression. Know what I mean? That kind of tax sucks.
I don't know, maybe I shouldn't be blogging when am in one of those moods. It also sucks to have HUGE and awesome ideas and not have the man power or money to fully see it through. Anyway, inshaAllah tomorrow is a new day and I'll feel better bi'ithnillah.