Islam's awesomeness is NOT dependent nor is it strengthen by who comes in to the religion or weakened by who leaves it. Rather it lays with Allah swt, His Book and His Messengers. People have come in and left during the time of the Prophet (saw), in the 1400+ years since then and they will continue to do so until the end of time. So why are you stressing when people leave? Just say inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi rajiuun, ask Allah swt to spare you their trials, give shukr for still having iman and keep it moving.As a new convert people will make you feel like you are the most awesomemest thing that has ever happened to Islam since the time of the Prophet Muhammad (saw). Sorry to burst your bubble BUT you aint. Its totally awesome that you found your way to Islam and inshaAllah it can benefit you in this life and in the hereafter but your conversion in no way raises Islam's awesomeness just like someone leaving it (inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi rajiuun) in no way decreases it. YOU either benefit from Islam or YOU don't but that is about it.
Similar thing when people come in, YAY and alhamdulillah for it, Ask to be blessed with even more iman, make du'a for the newest convert, help however you can, give shukr and keep it moving.
- Get used to the fact that you may be on your own for MOST of your learning curve. Don't worry its no big deal just keep asking Allah swt for guidance and to make it easy for you. You should definitely hook up with practicing Muslims and start attending classes at the masjid.
- HERE is a tutorial for praying
- Islam was revealed over 20+ years and NO ONE expects you to be perfect right out of the gate. This in no way absolves you from your responsibility to learn though ;)
- You should also learn about the prayer for guidance aka Istikhara as it will be IMMENSELY valuable to you in your growth.
ps. What is the difference between a non Muslim and a Muslim? besides aqidah not much, they are both people struggling with their whims and desires. No one is immune to the human condition.
to be continued...